November 2013

This is certainly so weird
Because I'd never feel so eager to make a blogpost at this timing
I feel like I must blog now.
My first time blogging with mobile phone.
It's just seem like not the usual me. Not me.
I feeling the tension.
My brain, my heart, they both feel it.
I feel sad. I feel exhausted.
I'm so afraid myself cannot go through this period.
I'm scared of myself, honestly.
I have so many assignments to do and I find out I've no idea how to start how to do.
I need positive energy.
I do really hope someone will hold my hand firmly and tell me it's gonna over soon.
I must find something to do to get me away the depression.
I wanna laugh happily I wanna smile but it just seems really hard for me now
November is not a good month for me
I'm truly an emotional person. :(

Life in Kelantan

Well, this is my second post in 2013

And I'm in Kelantan study for my degree right now.

Hmmm

Frankly, I never expected to came over Kelantan for my further studies

It's just seems like I have the right to make the choice for my life

But actually...not exactly

I just don't feel like disappoint my mom

If this was her wish, then I'll just follow and fulfill her wish, as a daughter

I would like to say, living at here wasn't so bad as what I expected

Because I'm that type of typical person who likes to expect the worse before the thing happens

So basically I can still alive and living over here lah

Still adapting the new environment over here

Yes and it's been 2 weeks I stayed at umk's hostel

The water is yellowish and sometimes will facing shortage of water supply

But well, learn to be appreciate

At least, at least....I still have water to bath, brush my teeth, wash clothes...etc.

Whatever lah, because complaints never help the things get better but even worse

So I think I'm blessed. :)

The bigger problem I facing here was....I don't really can be sociable

I think I must step out my comfort zone, just go out and making more friends.

Hopefully my life will getting better soon.

Looking forward for those group assignments, not because I like assignments

But I really like the feeling when we're united to complete our mission without racist

Will it really happens? No, Because I will definitely make it happens even though the thing won't go into the way I expected

And I will make it into my way.

Lastly, I wishing myself enjoy the life at umk and getting happier day by day.

Alright, I'll just stop it here. Ciao!

First post in 2013

Yea, it's February, in the middle of Feb already

I'm so lazy to blogging or typing something here

So I guess I've decided not to blog anymore

But I found out I was wrong until today I only realize about it

Hehe

CNY is almost over

Today is chu 10 I guess? 

Not really care about the date

Because I'm in holiday mood

Yupe, I wonder why my holidays so long

I feel eager to get into university

STPM result is going to release on next month

No feeling about matter yet

I didn't get a job yet

Not sure whether I'm lazy to hunt for a job or just keep finding excuses to enjoy life? Hehe

Who cares

So how was my cny?

Not really excited like the past years

I guess I don't really like to celebrate any festival since the day my dad passed away

although it had been 3 years

But one thing makes me happy

Guess what? I'm being praised!

Praised by relatives who never pay attention on me

Praised by friends who see my changes in appearance

HAHAHA

Tell me, who don't like being praised?

It's not flattering me I know it 

Because I only join with true friends :)

I'm not that sociable yet

As time passes through day by day

Surely I'll getting lazy day by day month by month

Hehe

Catching dramas on Astro makes me stay up late every night

Dark circles getting darker

what to do?

My lifestyle is going to a wrong way

And most importantly

THIS YEAR, I'm turning 20!