another THEY

Today I was very happy because I realized 5 more precious friends to me

 They are Cathe, Lei Ling, Momo, Kong Kong and Gui Gui


Especially Cather and Lei Ling


They are always helpful and kind to me


They sacrificed their time to lead me the road 


They both do help me a lot of things in life


Really appreciate and cherish our friendship :)


Sometimes we talk about craps and laugh out louder

I entertaining them and they entertaining me back too


I just love the time when we are together


Although I am the only one from different class among them


And me, Cathe and Lei Ling actually have a plan for next year


Hopefully we can make it!  ;)

Emotion control

Sometimes I will just get mad easily by the one I care

and honestly I have to admit that I'm actually a grumpy person in life

 I'm really glad that they know me so well :)


And yet they are patiently to talk with me and listen to me


They are always be my side and endure my bad temper

Though sometimes we never contact each other for months

I'm appreciate.

As time goes on,

I'm turning 19 in this year


Every year I felt that my emotion control is getting well and well soon


And this is not the truth


In fact I'm still easily influenced by my close friends


But I don't argue with them because it's quite tired


And the other reason is she is a grumpy person too


Just like what I know all the bad habits and style from her for years


Fortunately sometimes we are calm down after one shouted another


Maybe it's my style to make others misunderstand me


Due to my fierce appearance or expression, 


some of them just always thought that I'm a person who always get angry easily

Yet I never explain to them

Because I believe the one who knows about me will trust me utterly without dubious


Frankly,


I don't really care for who I don't care


I will never get angry on you because I don't care about you


See, the reason is so simple

Never let others affect my life to become so depress 

Because the one I care will never make me in that bad circumstances.

Love yourself.

Exam is just around the corner


And yet lots of homework still waiting for me to do


Haih, no choice la


I have to be more diligence


STPM is really so important until I can't even ignore it's existence


(talking nonsense)


But then


the only one thing I have to do is love myself more and deeply


WHY WHY WHY


Because I am the one who often  hate myself so much


So I have to love myself more


Since I've make this decision, I need to be the one me myself wish to be seem

I want to be speaking good and fluent English 

I want to have good result to apply for scholarships

I need to cheer myself up whenever I'm down

I have to be happy

I have to be optimistic

I have to be rich....in future (haha)


Those are the reasons that I have to be love myself more


So that I can accomplish it


;)