I miss those moments with them :)

It is a feeling

How to describe 

I have no idea, but claptrap 

Frankly, I miss the moment with those sampat classmates 

Especially the precious Langkawi's trip 

I still remembered I was not really enjoyed in that trip 

But seriously I found that I miss the moment right now 

Is it dark night affects my mood? 

Not really want to find out the answer. :) 

I just know that my period coming tonight 

Hoho 

So just share out the photos that I've not been post it up before.

 

I looked dark into those photos

Especially when I stand beside those friends with fair skin.

Sad case.

Because it's a fact right now.

Nevermine la,

I will try my very best to whitening back my skin

Although it's hard

Haha

Good night

Have a sweet dream. ;)

Hellooooo

Oh My God

I'm addicted to xs8.com

shit me

Going to fail my plan tonight

I waste whole day for surfing internet

Doing nothing but rubbish

Ishhhhh

I fail to study any subject today

But,,,,there's always a 'but'

I used to study some grammar and vocabulary for 2 hours

erhemmm

Don't ever praise me yet

But,,,, if you want to praise me,

then,,,,,


Thanks for your compliment first!

Hahahaha

Those who knows me will answer like this

SHIT YOU


My study speed is damn slow

that's why I used 2 hours to study it

Time flies without my notice

when I decided to stopped it and took a rest

It's a big big fault

Because I shouldn't take my rest and then

I used to rest until now and LOOK...

What am I doing now?

Blogging!!

2 hours study English, but 4 hours used to rest

What the hell

LOL

And now, let me be the Little Teacher @ my blogspot

Hehe

today I learned some words

Come on!


gregarious = sociable

lavish = generous

amicable = friendly

reckless = careless ( this word I learned it before somehow I forgot about it.)

frail = weak, fragile



Today is always better than yesterday

Nevertheless,

Tomorrow is always better than today too.

Always remember it please!

I talk to myself. :)

Just ignore about it if you see this

I'm just trying to make my own stupid quote

;)


I promise myself I will make use of my time start from next moment.

Look?

I'm just trying to deceive you

and also myself.


Well, let me finish my Chinese novel via Internet first!

It's not the time yet to say good night

So....

Ciao!

Hi December

It's holiday now

and it's going to be end

3 more weeks

sobs, why do holiday pass quickly always?

It's surely a sad thing for me

Before my holiday starts, I was having a lot of plans

Until now,

Just 25% I have did it.

How lazy I am due to this awesome holiday

Whatever

I'm going to start study books from tomorrow

I hope I can do it

this is the only thing I can make this holiday meaningful

I bet I'll regret if I study nothing in this 6 weeks of holiday

Don't you think so?

hehe

Oh ya, I'm broke now.

Hopefully my friends will 'forget' to date me out during X'mas

I actually want to go out with them eagerly

But, my pocket money is complaining to me

Because she's getting thinner and thinner everyday

haha

Teach you some vocabulary here

and also help myself to remember it


vengeance = revenge

jeopardy = danger

havoc = disorder



Somemore.......I forget already!

:)

Good night.

Thanks God

I do really Thank you to God for let me own this few friends

Don't really have much friends actually

But they're true friends. For me.

Sometimes, I do really mad on them

but I love them at the same time

That's why I care about them

Every time I thought friends are not really important

but they used to show me how important they were

What to do?

Accept the truth.

Yea, they're important to me.

They're always willing to support me when I get down.

Pei ching.Lay Chuan. Jia Ying. Pei Ling.

They're so true to me.

I love you all. :)

Appreciate!

Sometimes

I do really appreciate everything that happens in my life

Seriously I appreciate your love

Your love is really important to me and even affects my life

Thanks, my dear brother.

I miss your voice when you're not here. :)

Langkawiii :D

Firstly I don't think I will blog about the trip

But now

I gotta feeling :)

Frankly, I don't have a very high expectation to this trip

I didn't think about enjoy the trip

At last, I enjoyed the trip.

It's good.

But I was tanned by the big sun

Became darker after came back to Penang.

This was the only sad thing I think.

I feel to thanks Shu Nie for organized the trip

It was an awesome trip.

I drove Sentra and Naza at there

very unbelievable right?

It was because we be ourselves drivers

To be honest, I drove speedy at that time

Hehe

Let's see the photos they took

I didn't took much

because I'm the one who don't like to be cooperate

HAHA

Hey, just kidding

people friendly like me is impossible to be uncooperative okay?

So I'm just grabbed some photos of me in their album in Facebook

I guess those who read my blog would only like to see my photos right?

haha

Be patience,

because...I haven't finish my balderdash

I keep on thinking back of my memories with my dear daddy

when I was in Langkawi

That's why I look unhappy.

Because I miss him a lot and felt like want to cry

Don't worry, I didn't cry.

And I still able to laugh like a sunshine girl

haha

Okay, let's take a look on my photos.













I didn't post up all

because of the blogspot's problem

It's a mess if I used to post up all.

So, ciao!

Have a good night.

Dance?!

Dancing?!

Oh no!!!!

Seriously

I'll be forced to dancing in the future days

because of the 'COCO' Day

ishhh

People always said

Never try never know

But once you try

it never works

oh my godness!!

My limbs were stiff

I'm such a dancing idiot

:(

sad la wey

The aim for this dacing event is

SWEATING OUT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4_jqUSb_FLM&feature=related


LOL!

It's a rainy night

I'm back

after my final examination

Nevertheless,

Tomorrow I'll be having a speaking test

hmmm

Not so nervous although prepare nothing for it

Just try to do my best

Okay now

Let me write about something

My friend said I don't have any naive thoughts

because I'm a realistic person

and she said it's terrible

My mind is over matured then my age

sometimes

I don't really think that she knows me well

I'm the one who really know myself very well

Who don't really being naive before?

As time goes by

we should be growth up right?

shouldn't be always dreaming

dream about the impossibles

I confess that I do really being naive before

about my blacky knight, isn't?

I mentioned it randomly before at here

However

it's not her fault for not understanding me

I never ask her to know or read my mind

she always think that she knows me well

and actually she's not.

Frankly, she makes me disappointed for infinity times

she is the one who keep on saying that she's fed up with me

But the one she doesn't know was

I will also fed up with her

Anyway

I'm not going to reveal her name right here

Just....I hope I will just let it go

let the negative thoughts go away from my head

Stay positive as I always do

If you hate me, I don't really care.

I don't live to please you.


Just grabbed it from Facebook

And I think that this quote suits me well.

:)


Good night, World.

Mouth pain

Arghhhhhhhh

Mouth super duper pain!

It's so freaking out!

super ugly now because of my pig mouth...!!

I'm dying...dying...dying...

because of my stupid mouth pain

and also final exam is coming very soon!!

OMG



*Papa, please bless me in the heaven.
iloveyou, imissyou, Forever. :)

Lazy again

Seriously I feel like I couldn't handle sixth form now

It just like my homework will never finish for once

and don't really got the mood to study at all

I have no mood to study now

and next Tuesday I'll be start my examination

So shit

I haven't start any revision

How how how

God bless me!!

The life is hard and challenging me

I don't really capable to do well for every subjects I take

Will I failed up in future?

Still unpredictable

;)

Go go go

I have to overcome my laziness

I have to study hard

I wonder how many times I use to said 'I have to study hard' in my life time?

;))

I wish I could make it real

I hope I won't be just try my best only but do THE BEST

haih

Good night

It's time to go bed.

;(

Mess up with mind

I don't know whether the words 'mess up with mind' I used it correctly or wrong

But I just want to blog something

I took a nap during afternoon

When I woke up from sofa

I've got a sudden feeling which makes me so down

Don't know why

Maybe period coming soon?

I don't know

I need a friend

Yes, just a friend who can really know me well

a friend who cheers me up when I used to face troubles and problems

However

the facts I faced was tell me that it's really hard to find a friend like this

I don't like to quarrel

I'm just like to kidding...making some jokes...

I like to act something funny to amuse my friends

But I think I have neglected my own feeling

That's why I will think that it's not really fair for me

Why do I should make people laugh and happy but they don't really appreciate?

Why do I did like this?

Why should I make myself become so suffer?

Why I help someone and saw her succeed, I'll feel jealous?

Why and tell me why?

This make me start to hatred on myself

I don't want to be that!!

But why can't they appreciate?

I'm not asking for rewards, but can you all please understand me?

I'm always be the one who understand you well but you never

Sometimes I do really hate your voice, your face, your everything

I tried my best to look on your good and not your bad!

I thought you know me well but you actually don't!!

You took serious on my jokes and keep on sarcastic me!

You're the one who always say me silly!

silly is not a good word for me and 'funny' is acceptable

I hate 'silly' this word use on my attitude!!

I really couldn't endure anymore that's why I kept my mouth shut

I don't like I hate this

I'm so upset about this

I thought you're my close friend?

Maybe I should not bother about this

what should I do now is study hard

the one who can cheer up me is myself.

good night

MUET

I used to dislike doing MUET's homework actually

It's a weekend homework which means I have to do it once a week

That is a newspaper cutting and I have to summarize or paraphrase the articles

You wonder why is it so difficult and hard for me?

Because my vocabulary is limited and not so wide.

So upset about it.

But I will try my best endeavours to improve my vocabulary

so, smile

Oh ya, continue to the topic

Although I dislike the MUET homework

but I freaking love the feeling after done the MUET homework

It's just like I have make a big success, a triumph...

I'm so happy and thrill after finished it

Just now the PC is a bit hang

LOL

Luckily it recover back quickly

If not I think this post will be disappear

because I don't think that I will be so good to retype on it

;)

So

I'm doing the MUET homework now

It's annoying me because I don't know how to paraphrase!

ARGH

I think I'm going to get ratty on myself

You know I'm a grumpy person


what the hell I mentioned just now?

Love the feeling of doing MUET homework after finished it?

Yes, indeed.

So, STOP all my grumbling now!

Going to finish it soon and go bed earlier

BUT it's already 11.35pm now.

;(

I'm going to be a panda soon.


Wish me good luck in my studies

and I found that I love the feeling of study...learning new things

tell me, Who don't?

okay okay


Going to stop here right now.

Ciao!

寂寞侵蚀

有时候 一个人的时候

的确 特别容易 胡思乱想

可是幸好

脾气再怎么不好 还是个理智的人

你有过这种感觉吗？

被寂寞侵蚀

毫无安全感

过度的自卑

...

没事的 睡醒之后一切都会好的

可是有些人 有些事

错过了却无法回头

心里头觉得好恨好恨

表面却是若无其事

我很想很想你 你知道的

没人可以代替你 永远

何时 何时才能再相逢

我痛恨自己以往的不知足

我痛恨以往的不珍惜


可是...事到如今

时光无法倒流

回不了从前

无法停止的思念

无边无际的想念



我爱你，这句话太迟了。

Shock

Seriously

I've got a very big shock

As time passes through

it do really change everyone

OMG OMG OMG

Feeling of sometimes

Sometimes

I feel lonely when there's no one right here accompany me

start to think why don't I make more friends in life?

maybe,maybe it's not the right timing yet?

Sometimes

I feel so upset when I look in the mirror

lack of confident and courage

I think

I'm the one person who like to make my friends laugh

but, it's impossible to show out to a new friend

this is the problem I faced

;)

whatever, everything happens should let it grow naturally

that's why I love the word 'Fate' so much


and


lastly

It's JUNE now!

I'm going to be an adult

18.

what's wrong?

I went for account tuition just now

I realize that the speed I'm doing account is so slow

my god

others person already go through question 2 and I still in question 1

what's wrong with me?

Admittedly they are more clever more brilliant

Fine.

But I will try my best too.

Don't ever look down on myself please

;)

Going to do homework now

WORK HARD

HERE I GO!!

Love what you do

First, I don't know what's the problems with blogger

my blogger seems like something goes wrong

whatever

as long as I can still blogging. ;)

Okay now, let's back to the topic

hmm, what could I say now?

Once I choose the road I go by now

I should be more brave and courage to go through it

sixth form

hmm, it sounds like not easy

yea, Everyone said it's very difficult

unless I really put more and more efforts on my studies

firstly

MUET

it's really a big challenge to me

Have to speak in english

write in english

read in english

listen in english

Who knows I hate english since I'm in standard one?

And now

I have no more choice

Because every sixth former is a MUST to take MUET

Feel so OH MY GOD

to put it in a nutshell,

I have to LOVE WHAT I DO from right now

study study study hard

work hard

no laziness is allowed

it's seems like no relax right?

absolutely no relax

but of course I will take my time well to have a relax

I don't want to be nuts in study

just work hard

this is what I need for myself NOW

Bless me.

I know I will go well

Because I have a very good partner with me

I'm glad to have her be my partner in sixth form life

the girl, Chuan.

Keep Fit.

Hey

Call me FATTY

because I'm just a fatty girl.

FAST FAST FAST.

I would like to keep fit seriously.

Because I'm really fat like hell.

yes, I'm a pig.

Arghhhhhhhh

I want become thin thin la.

I want become beauty la..

I want become fit fit la...

Can I??

lol

I would start to keep fit from tomorrow.

I don't want people says my face is round

I don't want people cubit my fatty hands.

I don't want I don't want I don't want.


You're just nothing

You're not qualified to cubit my fatty hand and said me very 'wu bak'

It's none of your business

who are you

you are just a bitchhhhhh!

心情

考虑了好久

是否为自己买一本日记？

当然 还没买 还没决定 还在考虑

不知不觉

不， 是有知有觉

工作了快4个月了

=)

在这段期间

见识的人好多 有好的 有坏的

每天似乎都不同心情

没人可以听我的倾诉

没时间啊....

最近 情绪不稳

有些时候开心 有时候突然又变得冷漠

当我开怀大笑的时候， 被说成吵

当我面无表情的时候，却要我笑？

我不懂

为什么一直要求我对你们有笑容？

我不想勉强自己 笑得那么辛苦 也不行？

呵

其实我明白啦...

我不笑的时候 真的很冷漠很凶很可怕

可是也没你们说得那么跨张

我笑的时候很美、很甜？

LOL

当我听了之后， 真想苦笑

但又不想表现出来

面无表情是唯一可办到.

Sweet dream.

Yesssss!

I'm dreamed about you yesterday night.

You're so sweet to me.

My blackie knight. ♥






It's all about dreams.

And

It was only just a dream.


=))

当发生所谓的“火遮眼”

当冷静和理智存在

我还是个有脑袋的人

实事求是 小心谨慎

但

当那些都消失了

怒火中烧

我也许不再有脑袋

就算血肉模糊 我也不怕

缺钱...!!

天哪

请你赐个凯子给我吧

让我很用力很用力削他

哈 削凯子

终于明白

花钱容易 赚钱难~

做个睡前祈祷

我： 希望天降下来一个凯子兼黑马骑士给我
于是我可以很用力很用力地削凯子 也可以被呵护

呃...相信像我这种人的祷告

会实现才怪

所以

:))笑一笑吧

Am I change?

So do you have patient? haha!



























Do you see something different?

Absolutely, my hair colour change!

haha

And...in the last two pictures

I stick double eye-lid tape on my eyes to make it nicer.

Anyway....

Failed to make it nice.


byeeeeee

不服

我不知道为什么我得那么忍气吞声

觉得那是种经验

认为那是种学习

到后来什么都不是

是不是该嚣张一点

我并不是没有那种嚣张的资格

小姐我告诉你

我并不希望我的忍气吞声、长期工作时间

换回来的竟是那么卑微的薪水

至少你当初承诺我的条件并不是那样

你出尔反尔

是

就算我老爸过世了

我没靠山了

那并不代表我就得饿死

我爸留给我们的

我并不想碰

那全给妈妈和妹妹用就好

我就是想靠自己赚钱

怎知却是那么委曲求全

我想 在另一个世界的爸爸看到日渐憔悴的我为了工作而拼命

每天没有足够的睡眠时间

他也会心疼



所以

我不干了


爸所留下的

又不是养不起我

再多养几个我也没问题

哼

疲倦

感觉好累

爸，一年了。

时间并没有淡化我对你的思念

生活压力压得我好喘

是 是我给自己的压力

因为我不想无能为力

看着妈妈一人为生活奔波劳累

我会心疼

再加上哥哥

我真的不懂他是怎么想的

一起生活将近18年

我发现我一点都不了解他

为什么他的思想永远那么简单

你明不明白

这社会有多复杂

钱又多难赚

你有多容易被骗

可不可以请你不要那么天真

我不会当你的面如此说你

我会保持沉默

我尊重你

但请你长大 好吗

成熟一点

另一方面

工作上一直算少钱

今晚又少了10块

我快吃自己了

压力好大

我很不爽

=（


我不喜欢新年

从去年开始。

还记得

去年学校铜乐队表演那出色的演奏会

“大团圆”

泪水不受控制 不听话地流下

因为...少了一个你，

永远无法团圆了...

越长越大

见识的人越来越多

心机重的人也多

才发现

原来我以前被你保护得太好

原来你比我想象中的还要疼我们

原来我以前不懂珍惜

原来一切早就来不及了....

气

我很气很气很气很气...!!

简直就是头顶冒烟、鼻子猛喷气

为什么我已经那么认真了

还会连续发生错误

我对自己有信心

但我对你们没信心

我相信那并非是我的疏忽所造成的

是你们其中一位让我背黑锅

觉得好冤枉

刚才不断在想

是不是不干了

是不是想停了

为什么我得受那么多的气

为什么我得背黑锅

为什么我还是得笑笑说是

为什么我要忍气吞声

为什么为什么为什么

为什么经验一定是这样

为什么一定得那样

为什么这是固定的

凭什么说因为我是菜鸟，犯错的一定是我

这是什么根据

是你们的不认真

还是我不该认真

终究一句话

到底干不干

--------------------------------------------------------------------------


死老头

你嘴巴是用来吃屎的吗

原来如此

告诉你

棺材是留着等你去躺 不是我

没错

棺材是让死人躺 并非老人

可是我相信你会因为自己的没口德而得到报应

叫你老uncle 有错？

是不礼貌了点 那又怎样

谁不知道那不过是个玩笑

有人会像你这样一把年纪 还不讲理的吗

我看你不只因吃屎而嘴巴如此臭

连脑袋都装满屎

为你老婆感到悲哀 有你这种嘴巴又贱又臭又无牙的老公

为你儿子感到不公 因为他无法选择自己的父亲

等着瞧吧

从今以后 我不会和你开玩笑

也不会和你说太多我

对付你这种人 避而远之是最好的办法

你以为你是谁

你不过就是一个路人而已。

想念

我还是会很想念很想念你...

开始工作1个星期多了

我在一个亲切的马来大叔身上看到你的影子

乱七八糟的想法都冒出来

我好像特别喜欢他

但过后我明白

他的身形与你差不多

然后爱开我玩笑 寻我开心

我也可以对他没大没小

原来...我透过他来思念你

爸，我还是很舍不得你

这个月的26号...一年了

你离开我们快1年了

时间过得好快....可不是？

我会争气的。