It's all about 2012

Time flies

2012 gonna have a ending

This year, I really went through a lot of things

Happy, sour, touching, excited....and many more

Can't really able to express it all with words

so just let me rewind month by month

Jan 2012

Celebrate CNY as usual

Then....I found that I don't remember much

Haha, so sorry to myself due to my poor memory

Okay la, I give up.

Not going mention month by month, but event by event ok?

so the first event I went through was

I went to British Council took a part time course

Intermediate 2 class, taught by Mark Thompson

Unfortunately he only taught me for 6 weeks

Yes, the course contained 10 weeks and each week one class with 3 hours

I just miss him

hahaha, he is so handsome, attractive, adorable...

OMG, He just caught my heart too

Joking lah. He was my sir leh. A very nice sir ever.

so 10 weeks passing through

I have had my very first time SISC

which stands for St George's Girls school International Students'Conference

Very great experience I got from that

and I had an opportunity to make a lot of friends over the world

But honestly, I don't remember all their names

only few I remember whom I talked to and chairing together

after that

Relay for Life event hold on Youth Park

A very boring cancer event

People went there just for a look but not donation for the people who fight with cancer

They just want to have benefits for themselves

quite disappointed

Next

Chinese Society Farewell & Rangers' Farewell

for Chinese Society Farewell

we went to visited goat farm

err, somewhere in Penang

quite special, because I'd never been there before

went there and fed the goats

Get to knew more information about the goats

and of course I don't eat goat's meat

for Rangers's Farewell

They organized at RECSAM, somewhere in Penang too

Had buffet dinner at a student's house there

Not so fun

But I remember that we just sneaked out to had Ais Kacang at Sungai Dua

Yum yum, yes, we all love to eat

then then then

Graduation Day for Sixth Formers

we got to choose either wearing traditional clothes or formal attire

for me, I chose traditional clothes because I have mah

then we still had to cover our clothes with the red Jubah

I wouldn't say the Jubah is nice, it was actually ugly enough

because it was all red colour

Quite happy on that day

because it also meant that I'm going to leave the school very soon

hehe

Finally, it was STPM

4 weeks of STPM

before the STPM, I realy thought that the time table was pretty good for me

but, urgh, it really sucks

I was really stressed for whole month even until the last subject I took

Thank God the STPM is over now

I'm relieved and happy

I really tried my very best to study everything and to do my very best in the exam

Really hope that I can get a good result and get into a good local university

Now, let's talk about now

friends all busying to hunt for part time job

I guess me too :)

I need money money come to me seriously

By the way

Hope I can get a good part time job lah

That's all for today

I guess it's a quite long post I ever typed without a picture

Good bye.

Passion

You must do the thing that you think you cannot do

Do it now. Whatever you want to do, do it now!
There are only so many tomorrows.

Do what you can with what you have where you are

Be miserable. Or motivate yourself. 
Whatever has to be done, it's always your choice.

Be present, it is the only moment that matters.

You must begin to think of yourself as becoming the person you want to be.

After Stpm trial

It's Sept now

Time flies.

The actual stpm coming so soon

it will be held on 19th of Nov

I wouldn't say that I didn't prepared anything

But obviously my preparations for the actual stpm were not enough

I got this thought when I went through the whole stpm trial

Hmmm, need to fighting some more

Today is the first day after finished the trial

It's a day for me to relax my mind and tension

Yet my battery is fully charged.

And I know tomorrow I'll be a better me. :)

MUET was over!

Finally I had done with the MUET test by 28th of July


Time flies


I never thought that this day would come so fast


It's terribly bad and stress the few days before the test begins


Yea, It is over now


I don't have to worry much with English temporary


for 5 months maybe?


I'm not sure about this


but one thing that I pretty sure is


I MISS MARK THOMPSON


;(


Sir, where are you??


miss you so much


miss your smile your teeth your eyes your everything


Especially your superb teaching method


You really impressed me so much and motivated me


For God's sake, ily. :)


I hope I could go back in time


the moment I spent with you.:)


Well. I should stop thinking about him


Should talk about recently


Yupe, I am so busy to catch up the Korean Drama this few days


CITY HUNTER


My god, I feel so touched when I watched some specific scenes


Undeniable, It is an awesome Korean drama ever!


Handsome main actor and gorgeous main actress


How can I stand with this?!


This is totally inevitable for me to watch this right


but the net line is damn lag right now


Hate it because I am wasting my time again


Haih, I shouldn't watch it before stpm


But no choice la


Since I have catching it few days ago


so, just continue to watch it then.


Have a good night!

Lazy bug

yea yea yea


I am making fool for myself


wasting time again


I really hate myself from being that lazy


I need motivation seriously


to cheer me up and study


God, I know Study is very important for me now


But still I've lost my control


Online online online, for rubbish


haih, I need a change


and mindset is a KEY for the change.


Ciaoooo

Days after the conference

It has been a week ago

hmm, I guess I've been learnt a lot through this conference

It's a very good experience for me

I've met a lot of people from different countries

The only bad was they were all younger than me!

Argh, feel so old now

I always thought that I was very young and actually I'm not so young

Turning to 19 at the end of month

No more 18. :)

Lots of photos had been taken through the conference

Silly photos with my buddies.

Daniel Wu

So I'm going to talk about this handsome man right now

Yupe, I guess he is at the age of 37 this year

So unbelievable right?

He just looks so handsome, charm,elegant and the sense of real man

Hahahaha

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mUw2d2jAEBU&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4AEfKUrOeT8&feature=fvwrel

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=puhicVRzcHU&feature=related

I just can't stand with his voice, his accent, the way he talks, the way he actions

Just feel like want to scream out loudly when I watched the videos

God, how could a human being so perfect and handsome??

I'm so envy Lisa S. right now because she is Daniel Wu's wife

She is very pretty indeed.

I would like to say that they are perfect matched. :)

I just wish how good if I'm Lisa S. and be the Daniel's wife...

Hahahaha, start dreaming...I might be sleeping too much and my brain is blocked.

Anyway, I just want to show you how much I admire this handsome guy

Dream is always a dream.

So I better stop all the impossible dreams

Ciaoooo!

Oops, it's 520 today!

Yea, today is 520


But what I'm going to write here are totally not related to the title


Hehe


I wonder why I still can laugh it out.


Yes, I took some of my results.


Quite...bad. 


I guess my luck is finished.


I'm disappointed to myself


I'm the one who I can only blame on


Sometimes I just don't know why am I being so lazy


I know that I have to work hard


But is easy to say out rather than I take the real action to make sense


Sometimes I just thought that I'm a hopeless person


And I know I have to be optimistic 


It's my life. 


No one can even help me if I'm not going to help myself


I'm the one who can really raise myself up


A good mindset is very important for a person


It often changes one's thoughts and life


It actually reflects how your life is


Whether you're contented, happy with your life or not


And all I want is Happy and Peace


how I wish there's no hatred and even malicious in the world


Somehow I know that's impossible


If not, all the police are going to lost their jobs.:)


So, just think it in another way, a good way.


I'm going to make my life wonderful


and I'm going to spark my life out as long as I can


I'll be bold enough to make everything I want


Of course it is in a right manner


Just give me a very strong positive power


I'll promised I will and I can make it, this time. :)


The feeling of disappointed to myself is awfully bad.


Next time, I'll be proud of being myself by doing something meaningful.


It's a pledge for myself.

It's just a starting.

We've been started to preparing the Third SGGS International Student Conference since yesterday

And I'll be the chairperson for Workshop C in group 1

Hmmm, we did get the question yesterday 

But I guess I don't really full prepared for it

Today we make practices in school

As a chairperson, we should know how to spark out the conservation in groups

And also stopping the persons who keep on shooting each other

But I would like to say that

My performance was awfully bad 

I don't know how I'm going to be when the real conference is coming

I'm just very nervous and I can't handle my nervousness as well

My trepidation kills me in an invisible way

I can't really speak fluently in front of the georgians

They were too strong and I was too weak enough

My English is just like a disaster

I felt embarrassed when I could not utter a word

My mind was totally empty and blank like a sheet of white paper

It's my big problem

I have to find a way to tackle it and overcome my fearness

I have to be fearless and confidence

Argh, it's really seems like impossible for me to improve my English in few weeks

My goodness, please tell me what to do

But then

before I went for a nap just now

My mind was just popped out few sentences

'I love English. That's why I learn it passionately.'

'I just forgotten how much I love this English language'

'It's time to find me back my enthusiasm in language'

So I think I will have to work very hard for this conference

Put all my efforts in order to perform well and not bringing any shame to school

Besides, I will be chairing with somebody from Thailand

Wow, it's really so stress

My Mighty God, bless me please.

Lastly, that was a bad news for me


My little aunt which is my mom's sister


 fell down on the road accidentally to took her child home from school


Firstly I thought it was not very serious


Somehow 3 of her bones was hurt and a little bit cracked


Goshh, so pain! 


Poor my little aunt. She is a great mama as my mom. 


I'm so sorry that I don't have time to visit her. :(

Apologize

Sometimes I have to apologize to so-called 'friends' 


Because of my 'offensive' words


Frankly, I don't ever think that I have actually offend them


I'm just like to making jokes, kidding around my friends. 


So, I keep on telling myself


I have to be good emotion control


I have to be good in socialize 


I must not offend people easily


Somehow, I found out that sometimes the problem is not occur with me


But others.


And yet, I have to apologized to them because they think I have offended them


They think they are always correct


I'd like world peace


I don't like argue with people


It's tiring. So I apologized with no reason.


I always want to be a tolerant person.


And now,


I found out myself is tiring and hating to apologized with no reason


Why? Because they never cherish the way I choose to be tolerate


End up. They have make me dislike on them successfully


Well done.


I have set a rule for myself to remind myself that the world is actually wonderful


Once they have make me unendurable for infinity times


I will straight away go off 


I'm tired of this. Really.


I just want to be a better person. No matter how bad the situation is.


And sorry again, I won't be apologized to you guys with no reason from now on.


I believe those who are my friends, they will know me well


 and never get angry easily on my amusing words.

Released from exam

Today was the last day for mid-year term exam


Woohoo!


No matter hard or easy, I've done it and finished it


Just stop thinking and worrying about the results


It's not time for me to worry


I guess I have a lot of things to do during this month, May


I will have an International Conference on 26 of May until 30 of May


Of course I guess we all will start our practices or any prepare from next week


I'm sure it will be a precious experience for me


It's great


Ahh, I planned to write something here


But now I forgot what to write....shit me


so Ciao!

Arghhhhh

Why am I always feel so sleepy like a pregnant woman when exam is just coming soon?

Cannot, cannot , cannot!

Must find a way to cheer me up.

My mom told me I should be study law today

But mom, it's too late

Because I had choose the road to study business and account

And then she said

If you unable to get into local university, I will send you to study law in college

Oh mom, I just feel like I really interested in law now

But then I will be never give up on my sixth form studies

I want to get into university

I don't want to waste my one and a half year to study nothing

:)

I will continue to walk in the road I had choose.

Give me power, to eliminate my laziness and study hard

My teacher encouraged me, never afraid to make mistakes when I want to learn English

I listened to him and keep in my mind.

I love his green colour eyes

So pretty! :)

Non-stop laughing

I just can't stop myself from laughing non-stop 

When I see those jumping failed photos

So I decided to blog one more post about this

This time I going to post up all the jumping failed photos here

So

Are you ready?

Let's go!

First, get ready to make the jumping pose. Look at my dumb look.

Spot Siew Jing!

Spot Siew Jing again!

Spot me! The one who looks like chicken the most. 

Hahahaha

Spot me again! See how high I jump with my stylish hairstyle!

Spot Shirlene!

And I make the chicken pose again!

and this, everybody did the chicken pose.

Speechless about this. No comment.

Lastly,

Success!

This was a remarkable experience for me. :)

Heritage walk

Last Saturday we went for Heritage walk around Khoo Kongsi there

It's Ranger activities actually

We went for 17 places out of 21 I guess

Because we got lazy at the end of the activity

I was exhausted after this.

After that

Chern Yee suggested we took some jumping photos

Mostly failed jumping photos were taken

But it were all very funny and amusing

Just have a look here. :)

Burst out laughing whenever I saw the first photo of failed jumping

Siew Jing was cute enough

Hahahaha

Besides, I had also taken some photos with buddies

Here we go.

After the activities ended

Shu Nie which is also known as Hello Kitty

Jio us went to somewhere had 'Koay Teow Teng' and 'Oh Kio'

The moment I felt so awkward because they were 2 motors lead me the road in front of my car

And I was....

Felt shy actually

Because I am an idiot in recognized road way

That is the truth I have to confess it

Haih, sad case indeed. :(

However, that was really a fresh and fun experience

Just can't stop my laughing on that day

Have a good time with buddies.

My words

I know my attitude very well actually


I know sometimes my words will offend people that I never think that it do


What to do?


I speak my mind because it's hurts when I bite my tongue


I guess its my own personality


Some people will hate me and some will like me because of my words and style


They said my words are just too straight forward and sometimes it might be hurt people


And I never understand why do we have to make a big round or nonsense to imply the real words that we actually want to speak


Honestly, I never speak out the harsh words to hurt people


But they always feel hurt to my words and I don't know why


Because their hearts are just too fragile or too easily to be hurt?


I don't really know


I just like to joking around my friends


And I never thought that they will be so serious on my kidding words


It will also frustrates me and makes me feel hurt


Because it means that they never trust on me and even doubt on my personality


I never mean to hurt or offend anyone with my words


So now it shows me that I can't never joking with you if you're take serious on my words.


I just don't feel like to speak my mind out and explain to them


People who knows me well will never doubt on me


And people who never trust on me will never believe on me


It's a truth


It's tired for me to explain too much


I have no choice and choose to release my rubbish out here.


That's the only way I can do




So after that, I will just shut my mouth up to avoid myself to offend others


Make a wish, World peace, Life peace.

It's April

I always want to blog something meaningful here but ended up with lots of craps


Trying to speak more in English but ended up with my own awkwardness


Frankly, sometimes I even use Google to translate the words that I used to express my feeling


It's hard for me to speak English fluently

;( sad case.


Just kidding.


 I know myself got a little bit improvement 


It's a good news. hehe


Exam is around the corner again


Loads of things waiting for me to study


but no choice, because I will just easily get into sleep whilst I flipping through the books


I know it's a bit exaggerate but it's a fact that I can't deny it


last exam I got myself second place in class


I used to think that it was a luck


I never think that I will be that clever to get into the first 3 places in my class


Haih, still have to make a new mindset and work harder


I'm just too lazy.


Today morning I went to cheng beng my dad with mom, sister, aunt and grandpa


Brother couldn't make it because he will only come back on this Sat from KL


I just miss my dad a lot. It's been more than 2 years I couldn't listen to his voice, touch him and see him


I am so regret that I never show my appreciation to his dedication for me


I never say I love you to him.I just miss him.


God, anything to let me soothe my pain from missing my dad?


Time never reduces the pain in my heart and pain never fades.


I have no more opportunity to meet my dad in my whole life


I just feel like dropping tears and yes I did it.


Sometimes I just have to make my life more busy so that I don't have time to flash back my memories


It's too pain for me to lost my dad.


I must stay positive and think positive


This is what I always remind myself


And this is so called Life


We will keep on saying Goodbye to the one we love in future


So what is the purpose for me to possess my love ones if  I have to keep on saying goodbye to them


And keep on getting pain and hurt?


This is the question that I always want to ask The Mighty God


I know I have to be stronger and stronger


I have no choice and no blame


This is my fate. I accepted.


So who will be the next to say Goodbye to the world?

Work Hard

Today STPM results were released


Of course that was not mine but seniors


Just feel like OMG


Because their results were terribly bad compared to the previous batch


It did scare me.


God, I must start to work hard from now on.


But a good teacher is always a problem to students


Honestly


It's hard to find a good teacher in our school


So since I have no choice, I really have to put all my efforts on my studies


Dad, I wanna make you feel proud of me in the heaven. :) imissyou.


Form 6 life is challenging, never regret for my choice


I'm just glad that this was the choice that was make by my beloved dad.


If not, I probably will just follow my brother footsteps and get into Tarc college.


So WORK HARD WORK HARD WORK HARD


I will have to make a change in my life, a drastic change. 


Wish me luck. :)

another THEY

Today I was very happy because I realized 5 more precious friends to me

 They are Cathe, Lei Ling, Momo, Kong Kong and Gui Gui


Especially Cather and Lei Ling


They are always helpful and kind to me


They sacrificed their time to lead me the road 


They both do help me a lot of things in life


Really appreciate and cherish our friendship :)


Sometimes we talk about craps and laugh out louder

I entertaining them and they entertaining me back too


I just love the time when we are together


Although I am the only one from different class among them


And me, Cathe and Lei Ling actually have a plan for next year


Hopefully we can make it!  ;)

Emotion control

Sometimes I will just get mad easily by the one I care

and honestly I have to admit that I'm actually a grumpy person in life

 I'm really glad that they know me so well :)


And yet they are patiently to talk with me and listen to me


They are always be my side and endure my bad temper

Though sometimes we never contact each other for months

I'm appreciate.

As time goes on,

I'm turning 19 in this year


Every year I felt that my emotion control is getting well and well soon


And this is not the truth


In fact I'm still easily influenced by my close friends


But I don't argue with them because it's quite tired


And the other reason is she is a grumpy person too


Just like what I know all the bad habits and style from her for years


Fortunately sometimes we are calm down after one shouted another


Maybe it's my style to make others misunderstand me


Due to my fierce appearance or expression, 


some of them just always thought that I'm a person who always get angry easily

Yet I never explain to them

Because I believe the one who knows about me will trust me utterly without dubious


Frankly,


I don't really care for who I don't care


I will never get angry on you because I don't care about you


See, the reason is so simple

Never let others affect my life to become so depress 

Because the one I care will never make me in that bad circumstances.

Love yourself.

Exam is just around the corner


And yet lots of homework still waiting for me to do


Haih, no choice la


I have to be more diligence


STPM is really so important until I can't even ignore it's existence


(talking nonsense)


But then


the only one thing I have to do is love myself more and deeply


WHY WHY WHY


Because I am the one who often  hate myself so much


So I have to love myself more


Since I've make this decision, I need to be the one me myself wish to be seem

I want to be speaking good and fluent English 

I want to have good result to apply for scholarships

I need to cheer myself up whenever I'm down

I have to be happy

I have to be optimistic

I have to be rich....in future (haha)


Those are the reasons that I have to be love myself more


So that I can accomplish it


;)

Unknown.2012.

It's not a good title I know

But I have no idea about it.

To me, 2012 is a best year 

Meanwhile, it's going to be a tough year for me too


WHY WHY WHY


Because this year I going to face STPM

I will be very busy on my studies and activities


and we're the last batch to use STPM's format


It's quite weird why I always got the 'last batch' for everything?


Whatever la. I accept it as a challege.


Challenge accepted. Come then, I don't scare!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I'm not a hysterical person yet. Don't misunderstanding me okay!


Argh,


Tomorrow is going to make a decision


Whether should I join the International Conference or not

Frankly I am captivated by the SUPER HIGH cocu marks


And the SUPER INTERNATIONAL CERTIFICATE 


But why am I still hesitating now?

WHY WHY WHY WHY AGAIN


I'm in a dilemma circumstance now


Because if I join it and sign up for this conference


I can't withdraw anymore if I can't make it 


And the problems are

I don't know whether I can or not


I don't really have confidence enough to speak English in front of the public


You know why it's name out as International Conference??


Because it is open for FOREIGN STUDENT over the world


What if I spoil it and bring up shame for my school in front of the international students?


That's really OH MY GOD!


GOD, please tell me what should I do?


Turning back to the topic about 2012


everybody was spreading the rumor about 2012 is a doomsday

OH REALLY? THEN I DON'T WANT TO STUDY ANYMORE


Hey, just kidding


What if 2012 is NOT the end of the world?


Everything get ruins if 2012 is a doomsday


And if you decided to enjoy your life start from now


Likewise you don't want to study anymore, 

you spend a lots until bankrupt also feel like it is okay because doomsday is coming soon

LET ME TELL YOU NOW

Your life get ruins if 2012 is NOT a doomsday


Enjoy your life is a must but not too over


I have to learn enjoy everything including the toughest moment


It will makes me happier and better if I stay positive and think positively


So why not?


2012 is a best year and it is full of new hopes

Wishing everyone have a good luck in 2012

And

GONG XI FA CAI

(Next Monday will be the first day of CNY and I know I will not blogging often.)


so Bye!

Hug me

Sometimes I just need a hug to cheer me up

It's really tiring life

What to do?

Love what I do, and not do what I love

Stay positive, and be positive.

:)