It's April

I always want to blog something meaningful here but ended up with lots of craps


Trying to speak more in English but ended up with my own awkwardness


Frankly, sometimes I even use Google to translate the words that I used to express my feeling


It's hard for me to speak English fluently

;( sad case.


Just kidding.


 I know myself got a little bit improvement 


It's a good news. hehe


Exam is around the corner again


Loads of things waiting for me to study


but no choice, because I will just easily get into sleep whilst I flipping through the books


I know it's a bit exaggerate but it's a fact that I can't deny it


last exam I got myself second place in class


I used to think that it was a luck


I never think that I will be that clever to get into the first 3 places in my class


Haih, still have to make a new mindset and work harder


I'm just too lazy.


Today morning I went to cheng beng my dad with mom, sister, aunt and grandpa


Brother couldn't make it because he will only come back on this Sat from KL


I just miss my dad a lot. It's been more than 2 years I couldn't listen to his voice, touch him and see him


I am so regret that I never show my appreciation to his dedication for me


I never say I love you to him.I just miss him.


God, anything to let me soothe my pain from missing my dad?


Time never reduces the pain in my heart and pain never fades.


I have no more opportunity to meet my dad in my whole life


I just feel like dropping tears and yes I did it.


Sometimes I just have to make my life more busy so that I don't have time to flash back my memories


It's too pain for me to lost my dad.


I must stay positive and think positive


This is what I always remind myself


And this is so called Life


We will keep on saying Goodbye to the one we love in future


So what is the purpose for me to possess my love ones if  I have to keep on saying goodbye to them


And keep on getting pain and hurt?


This is the question that I always want to ask The Mighty God


I know I have to be stronger and stronger


I have no choice and no blame


This is my fate. I accepted.


So who will be the next to say Goodbye to the world?